PeaS

there's so much to say but those words will never be spoken...
caught in 2 minds..
not knowing what to do..
e thing i've been looking for has finally been found..
i thought that'd be it..
problems solved..
but no..
i find myself unable to take what i found..
i am not deserving of my find..
furthermore i am still wary of my future..
it would be selfish of me..

yet i will hold on to it forever..not that u'd know..

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

yeah it wont be easy.
that doesnt mean we shouldnt at least try.
honestly try our very best.
the result wont matter for now.
cos its juz time to try.

remember what you saw.
cherish the moment.
it was a beautiful sight.

have faith.

when memories come to haunt you.
wounds, yet to heal, are re-opening.
struggling to keep it together.
i cannot trust myself.
the problem was never solved.
i merely found strength to cast it aside.
please dont hurt me.
i dont mean to hurt anyone.
help me, keep him away.
i fear his return.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

e trip was great. best part was go-karting, speeding down the back straight n thru e corners =]

still in rehab period. beginning to struggle more now. hope i can make it thru.

its hard trying to move on when the past keeps coming back to haunt you and fill your mind with lots of negativity. i wanna move on. this could be the chance i've been waiting for. but its so hard trying. my level of self-doubt gets pretty high at times.

i dun wanna hurt anyone.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

happy cny 2 all! =]

it's been a wonderful week. saw the good things in life again. n i can finally say i felt happy. made several new frenz too. a really big thank you to all who helped me out during those troubling times. whether it be trying (quite unsuccessfully) to talk some sense into me or juz listening (to words i never said). you were really a great help.

going 4 a short holidae wif my fam excl bro. so...
take care from carebear
haf fun at funfair
ciaoz =p

Thursday, February 08, 2007

i am actually a worse person than i thought i was. much worse. there's no way i could have imagined that i'd turn out to be this bad. 10 yrs. a lot has changed. perhaps it had always been in me. it juz needed time to show its colours.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

what if.. if only.. all that dont matter.. what matters is what happened.. decisions were made.. nothing can change that.. n i'm left with one last chance at happiness.. not that u can see it..