PeaS

things finally seem to be beginning to clear up.
i hope i can get to doin dat 8yr career plan.
anw there's no way i can finish in 2yrs if i stay.
will probly take 3 more yrs. or 2.5 min.
so 8yr plan is juz an xtra 1 yr.
i can do that.
n potentially $18k of my parents money saved.
another plus pt.
in fact, wif d allowance, it'll b more than 18k.
cons.
it cld be juz as hard as stayin.
bond. 8yrs = 8yrs.
hey, i havent got in yet =(
quit dreamin.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

it never fails to hurt.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

hold that thought for one minute. it could save you a life.
when uncertain, the temptation to take the easy way out can still be overcome.
what the heck am i typing.

Monday, April 23, 2007

when the pain is so unbearable it causes u to vomit.
exercising the right to protect myself.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

y muz it b dis way.
happy memories are more haunting than traumatic ones.
when happiness causes trauma.
really dunno wad to do.
gotta figure sumthin out.
fast.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

its like this. i screwed up big time this time. but now i'm getting dat feeling again. like i gotta make up for wad i did. d desire to succeed is returning. which confuses me. big big time. really dunno wad to do now. 9 steps backwards 10 steps front. dat's how i've been living my life since 14?

though it'd b very easy to do some crazy crap again.

coz juz when u think it cant get any worse than this, it does.

i juz wanna make sumthin right. sumthin dat's not up to me. please juz end dis crap. are u having fun?

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

pursuit of happyness..
havent watched d movie. wld veri much luv 2. will smith looks quite convincing in d trailers..

my own pursuit of happyness..
has left me a broken n dejected person. try as i might, it is juz not happening. wad else can u do when u're losing ur trust of everyone around u? truth b told, i now trust no one. not a single soul on earth. i'm juz going blindly forward, expecting ppl to, 1 by 1, begin doing unthinkable acts. everyone is against me. dat is what i'm being led to believe.

sumtimes all a person needs to continue in his pursuit is dat little bit of unrealistic hope. remove dat hope, all he sees is darkness. he's left unable to differentiate between right n wrong, good n evil. there could be sumone reaching out to u dis very moment. for sum reason he sees u as d only source of hope left to keep him going. u may think, y me? wad difference can a person like me make? wad difference is there betw me n sumone else? y cant d person reach out to sumone else? these qns can never b answered.

yes, it is ur right to make ur own decisions n choices. yes, u may b doing d right thing. if u truly believe deep in ur heart dat u will haf no moral regrets then so be it.

so wad do u do when this person reaches out to u? i hope u wouldnt cut his hand off. we r afterall, both humans.

(there is still alot to be said. but no words can be formed to express them.)

Thursday, April 12, 2007

what u want???

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

recovering physically.....