PeaS

i'm under alot of pressure now. expecting more to come in the coming month. n i'm feeling ever so lonely. hope i'll make it. wish me luck (if u're around)

from a Fort Minor song, The Hard Way:
"Can somebody please just explain to me
What happened to the way that we always said we'd be
Cause right now i don't know why i pushed through the pain that i got through
And i'm losing hope, give me one reason not to"

Friday, July 07, 2006

in that dreaded drepessive mood again..

next wk will be my final proper wk in camp. hopefully.. realised that i have super a lot to handover to my understudy who isn't really my understudy. haiz. want to leave got so much probz. do so much already still got so much probz.

sometimes i think to myself, it'd b better if i jus go to prison. if i jus do bad things. if i jus become a bad person. completely bad person. den nobody will expect me to do anything gd. n if i do anything bad it wont hurt ppl dat much.

i am so tired from trying to do all this and that. can u stop giving me so much probz?? i'm hearing voices in my head.