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Thursday, March 30, 2006
helloooo... got discharged this afternoon. dr said i didnt have the thing they tested for so i guess thats gd. the fast was kinda fast hehe.. seriously it wasnt as tough as "3 days on only water" sounds. mayb cos the nurses were nice, polite etc. mayb cos i slept quite alot. aniwae its over. mc till tmr. back to camp on monday. more rest. hope nobody calls me.. thats all for now..
Sunday, March 26, 2006
tomorrow will be the start of my 72hr fast @ ttsh. no food, no flavoured drinx , just good 'ol plain water. wont be makin any special prep for it like eatin alot 2day. whatever happens, happens. jus hope for the best. n the best may sometimes be the opposite what you want. ppl change. hope i can keep up wif this change. personally i think its for the better. only He knows. i haf to remain sincere n true to myself. keep going at it. never give up. jus like a hockey match.. The match kicks off the moment u're born and lasts till u die. the opponents represent ppl who try to bring u down, lead u astray but u can always count on ur teammates who r ur friends n will help u when u're in trouble. the umpire is like Him. sometimes the decisions may go against but u muz remember that its he who decides. u jus keep playing by the whistle. failures result in goals being scored against u. ur success r the goals u score. sometimes u get away with fouls (wrongdoings), other times u r punished. there is no substitution. u live ur life. whatever u get is meant for u n nobody else.. the score may be 10-0 to the opponents but as long as u r playing, u have a chance of scoring so u gotta keep going till the end. i'm not out to impress anyone. cos whenever i try to do so i fail miserably haha. my eyes hurt quite bad from lack of sleep. i havent believed enough yet but i'm out to correct it. there is a story behind every rose, this story began with me.... Sunday, March 19, 2006
juz came back.. went out wif cuzs n bro aft e function. not really feelin ok 2dae. kinda giddy ever since i went out. not werkin tml so can rest @ home. missed f1 again. haiz. got footie now. liv vs nufc. quite interestin. but i think i'll be slpin soon. head spinning. b4 i start sweating for no reason again i better rest. c u tml. who? whoever la. gdnite
just came back from drivin lesson. my test is on 18 july. so far away. today's lesson was quite interesting. think i'm a rather dangerous driver haha can't spot n react to hazards quick enuff. slow la. haha. i have a habit of banging into things n unfortunately its being carried over to my driving. watapity haha. i think my settings r kool. u agree? no? i dont care! they r kool! hahaha. still gettin used to typin on dis lappy. quite fun. just type n type n type. keep going. make mistakes. backspace. delete. dot dot dot... =) think i need a day off but dunno whether to take on monday or friday. just stay at home, relax, slow down. sometimes things happen so quickly u just gotta take a step back n absorb what's happened. 3 steps forward, 2 steps back kinda thing. got a function to go later. after dat i'll enjoy the rest of my sunday @ home watchin tv. there's formula 1 @ sepang today. wanna watch dat. missed last wk's season opener cos i was on dootee *sobz* haha dat toopid xtra. aft dat there's footie. tink i should take off tml. will call me boss later. hope he allows. not much to do in camp now anywayz. *yawn* think i'll go slp now. quite tired. oh. there's csi. but mum watchin sumtin else. so slp it shall be. gd nite! Monday, March 13, 2006
gots me a lappy from the recent IT show. i'm lovin it! haha. i think i can blog more often now.. i still haf trouble sleepin. keep wakin up for no apparent reason. haiz. gettin very very exhausted. sigh.. i noe im sad. but i dun feel like i am. laughter helps i guess. keep laughin n itll all be okai. haha. thanx 2 the ppl in camp i dun haf much trouble laughin = ) thanx guys! its gonna be ten! i think im hungry. but got no appetite. mum cooked my fav dish. still no appetite. ill eat. juz dump the food in my mouth. haiz. ppl no food complain, got food dun wanna eat. nonsense. crap. i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut, my weakness is that i care too much. our scars remind us that the past is real, i tear my heart open just to feel. -from "Scars" by Papa Roach Saturday, March 11, 2006
theres sumthin i wanna say. i think its best represented by this song.... Staind - Right Here I know I've been mistaken But just give me a breaking See the changes that I've made I've got some imperfections But how can you collect them all And throw them in my face? But you always find a way To keep me right here waiting You always find the words to say To keep me right here waiting And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting Searching for the things to say To keep you right here waiting I hope you're not intending To be so condescending It's as much as I can take And you're so independent You just refuse to bend So I just keep bending 'till I break But you always find a way To keep me right here waiting You always find the words to say To keep me right here waiting And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting Searching for the things to say To keep you right here waiting I've made a commitment I'm willing to bleed for you I need a fulfillment I found what I've needed in you.. Why can't you just forgive me I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made Along the way But I always find a way To keep you right here waiting I always find the words to say To keep you right here waiting But you always find a way To keep me right here waiting You always find the words to say To keep me right here waiting And if I chose to walk away Would you be right here waiting? Searching for the things to say To keep me right here waiting. Friday, March 10, 2006
whoa.. its been quite some time since my last post. havent had the opportunity to blog. i shant say this is a tell all session between now n then. whatever that comes to mind will be here. lets see, where do i begin... oh i'll be in ttsh on 27 - 29 march to do some tests. gotta fast for 72hrs. only water! been sort of preparin for dat these past few days. havent been eating as much as i normally do when in camp. haha. though im rather forced to do so due to certain things. haha. life's generally been quite gd except that im quite exhausted. keep havin nitemares, waking up frequently. just not gettin dat "good night's sleep". stayed-in on wed. too tired to go home n return to camp the next mornin so i decided to go back camp on wed after driving lesson. oooh driving! haha. (next para ->) driving's been fun! its always the highlight of my day when i have lessons. mayb cos im finally learnin sumthin new (other den life skills a.k.a. politics @ work). driving somehow keeps down my desire to play/run/sweat/whack/be whacked i.e. hockey, soccer. so far i got 1 major prob. i react too slowly to hazards n changes in traffic conditions. haha. cant say it hasnt been the story of my life. the instructor got very frust once n said "u young man shouldnt react so slowly!". haha. what to do. my body parts just dont move quickly enough after my brain has sent out the direction. haha. perhaps my brain just processes stuff slowly. thats the way i like it. slow n steady. yeah! FORT MINOR concert was great! as the saying goes... that is all i have to say.
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