PeaS

lectures start 2dae. luckily my 2pm lect doesnt start till nxt wk so onli haf 1 lect later at 4. 1st lect alredi so lazy 2 go. dunno how 2 go on for 1 sem let alone 3,4yrs. will take it a step at a time. no worries. not gonna unnecessarily put pressure on myself. intend to spend this stage learning, not studying. if grades cant make it nvm as long as i learn stuff. doesnt mean learn academically onli. wanna learn more abt life. rather lagging in dat aspect. used 2 simply follow e rules n stuff but ended up with knowledge of books n little experience. i've got much 2 learn.

u can have all the material wealth u want but it can never bring u happiness. sure, u mite feel "happy" 2 have all those stuff but its usually when u 1st get those things dat u feel dat way. after a while u begin craving for other things so u're not dat happy anymore... true happiness comes from a true heart. spending time with ppl, getting to noe them. ppl value "family". but how many actually noe every person in his/her family inside out? u can buy stuff for them on their bdays etc but if u dont spend time with them den ur gifts will gradually lose its meaning. almost to the point dat u're trying to buy their love. so dont get so caught up with work. yes, work gives u money to put food at the table but who's gonna eat it when everybody lead their own lives n eat out?

there's alot of unhappiness within me which i cannot put in words. some of it mite not have been written the way its meant to be seen. all i noe is i'm feeling very empty n i finally see how dumb n useless a degree is. so i'm no longer being an undergrad to get the papers to qualify for a higher paying job. i'm here to learn.