PeaS

feeling kinda down. i guess its my fault. its my fault that things are the way they are. haiz. i could go on blaming myself for everything but that wouldn't be right wld it? its a challenge. probably the biggest one in my life. i need to find a way to pass this test no matter wad. at least i'm not facing it alone. i jus hope that in time, people would change their opinion abt stuff. some particular people. not everybody. am i being selfish to ask for such a favour? am i?

Saturday, August 07, 2004

today is the seventh day of august in the the year two thousand and four. stayed at home the whole day. kinda bored. nuttin to do. let's see. there's work on national day then break till thursday. then its work till saturday then from monday onwards, normal work times resume. rumors are rife that my office which currently has 3 clerks will be forced to having just 1 clerk. that 1 clerk happens to be me. i'll get the 'honour' of doing all the work. its not all that bad. i roughly know wad one of them does. but the other one, looks like i'll have to learn very very quickly. there's a lot of potential but potential is just not good enough.

i can feel it change. i can feel it grow. planted within me is a strong desire and will to make it happen. the energy, the passion, they're all dying to burst to life. is time too slow or is it growing too fast?

Sunday, August 01, 2004

tmrw i'll be celebrating 3mths of ns. reminds me of jc 1st 3 mths. haha. oh i dreamt that somebody called me n told me that there'll be hockey practice at mandai hill camp n i remember being so disappointed because the people there don't really like it when i do smtg too physical i.e. i can't play. haha wad nonsense...