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came back from holiday to KL on sunday evening. went to jb late afternoon on monday. not sure what i'll be doin today. not really sure of anything right now. rather blurrieee.
i think i wont be going out as often as previous weeks. guess its back to the old stay-at-home-unless-there's-smtg-important me.

"Belief is that thing that transforms dreams into reality.
Do you believe?" ~Blurrieee

Monday, January 19, 2004

not going for training today. still recovering from sat's match. disaster match. and man u jus had to lose to wolves dat same nite. quite a bad day last saturday. think i may jus knock the ball ard at home later.

been having those 'it-really-feels-real' dreams lately. the thing that makes them seem so real is that they could actually happen. but then, they couldn't. circumstances dictate that.

the only major illness i have,if it can be called that, is stress. shuttup

Wednesday, January 14, 2004

i'm back! 1st,it was my pc, den printer, den internet connection. all add up to the neverending things tt don't seem to function properly once they pass thru the gates of my house. now, pc n internet seems ok. but i got gastric. ouch. have to write smtg here. lotsa stuff happening. think i falling sick bcos of dat.

supposed to meet khoo bear n wanted to go physical training wif e hockey boys but i got gastric(remember?). anw,been training wif dem hockey peeps quite regularly. funny, in late december i jus didnt feel like holding the stick animore. how feelings can change (more on this later). so this sat, i'll be playing for barkerites in U21 tournament. mr harvey called me to play last wk. re-thinking bout playing this sat though. sure,the team needs a defender cos this yr's players arent up to standard yet but they should be made to play instead of calling me up rite? so that they can improve. guess i'll be giving him a call.

yupz. feelings can change. especially at this point in our lives. mine hasn't,though. =) bud then, not everything is as rosy as it seems.

oh,went suntec with some1 really mad yesterday. haha and i the mad disease got transferred to me at the end of the day. see yaaaaaa

Friday, January 02, 2004

today i slacked at home. again. nvm. tmrw got lotsa stuff to do. will be busy the whole day. happy 2004? wadeva. alone i am never. i've always got my mind for company. sometimes its quite irritating though. feel kinda on the down side now. shall make myself look on the bright side. yeah. shall do that. i shall stare at the sun. goodbye for now.

Linkin Park - Papercut
Why does it feel like night today? Something in here’s not right today. Why am I so uptight today? Paranoia’s all I got left. I don’t know what stressed me first or how the pressure was fed but I know just what it feels like to have a voice in the back of my head. It’s like a face that I hold inside; a face that awakes when I close my eyes; a face that watches everytime I lie; a face that laughs everytime I fall and watches everything so I know that when it’s time to sink or swim that the face inside is hearing me right underneath my skin. It’s like I’m paranoid looking over my back. It’s like a whirlwind inside of my head. It’s like I can’t stop what I’m hearing within. It’s like the face inside is right beneath my skin.
I know I’ve got a face in me; points out all my mistakes to me. You’ve got a face inside you too. Your paranoia’s probably worse. I don’t know what set me off first but I know what I can’t stand. Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is I can’t add up to what you can. But everybody has a face that they hold inside; a face that awakes when they close their eyes; a face that watches everytime they lie; a face that laughs everytime they fall and watches everything so you know that when it’s time to sink or swim that the face inside is watching you too; right inside your skin.